”The most strongly enforced of all known taboos is the taboo against knowing who or what you really are behind the mask of your apparently separate, independent, and isolated ego.” #alanwatts
“Be the silent watcher of your thoughts and behavior. You are beneath the thinker. You are the stillness beneath the mental noise. You are the love and joy beneath the pain.”
…my mind blew wide open and that nugget became a catalyst for a personal revolution. Not that I knew what to do right away with such a powerful awareness, I didn’t. Over time it became clear that if we can observe our thoughts, then we must also be able to choose how we want to feel/think/believe/respond to anything. Anything. Think about the shit ton of self-responsibility that comes with that one. Not to mention the huge amount of awareness needed to stop the deeply embedded knee-jerk reacting. To instead pause, breathe, and to make a different choice in any moment. No wonder it was so difficult to get on board. I could also then choose not to stay stuck in my stale old stories and destructive habits that I’ve identified with my whole life as being “me.” I mean, if I’m not this ego construct I think I am, then I must be able to shape and mold myself into what I want to be. “Be the change you want to see in the world…”…right?
As with any big journey – we start with where we are now. Finding acceptance for myself, and others was the beginning, but I resisted that for a long time. I held onto my justifications that they should change, or something should be different. Forward motion began when I released my need to change and control everyone and everything. When I fully embraced allowing things to be as they are. By choosing, again and again, to be anchored in this present moment space of acceptance, instead of lost in my thinking/judging/ reacting/ controlling mind, a beautiful thing happens – I start to make choices based on the conscious values of who I want to be. Even now, that simple sentence takes my breath away.